:: Sport Day ::

wel..
2day was my last yr of sport day o..
i jz hope tat i could master those gb gals..
those involved in matching d..
hope tat they can performed nicely during sport day..

starting from april..
v ald started 2 teached them lo..
but always ony a few ppl came d..
always n always..
quite a disappointed la..
so nva dreamed of win la..

den 2day sport day very sienz lo..
at d beginning la..
den i hav no feel 4 tis yr d sport day lo..
coz no tat screams (2 support their our team)..

den when matching..
i sweat like jz take my bath lo..
all my body oso bcum extremely wet lo..
aiiyerrrrrrr.. ( wat tat )
nt very comfortable lo..
v my sweaty body..

den at d last mins of d sport day..
almost dismissed jor ler..
den taecher announced tat d winner 4 d badan beruniform..
is our GIRLS' BRIGADE !!!
walao.. tat time almost stunned jor..
cant believed lo..
hehe..
den started 2 screams n laughed til out of control lo..
5 of us seemed crazy jor..
keke xDD
quickly v called 2 capt. py, off. anita n sl lo..
v all told them tat v gt d winner la..
den all oso gone crazy jor..

finally v all gt 2gather n took sum group pic lo..
holding d sepanduk n d big hamper..
haha.. so hapi leh..
almost wan cried out d..
*pai seh o..


__________ SWEET MEMORY OF LAST SPORT DAY __________

~ EnerGy_LeSs ~

2day d mood quite bad er..
bad til myself oso cant bear it..
wanna fat sit d..
but duno how o..
reli dun hav energy 2 talked jor..
sumore no energy 2 argue leh..
wan angry oso felt very lazy 2 did so..
wan cry oso no energy..
haiz..
tired o..

Menstrual Cycle !!

2day gt meeting at sch..
im d commander lo..
hehe xp..
they all said my command jz like scolding ppl o..
myself oso nt realised it d..

when sch meeting..
act i gt no mood d lo..
mayb coz of i din slept well last nite gua..
dun wan said anything la..
duno wat 2 said..
jz remain quiet lo..
very sleepy oso er..
wanna sleep liao..
especially when at d mamak thr lo..
they talked i listened..

den fm go bek home v me o..
2 took shoes 4 dia..
jz 4 a while la..
den she said my bro very cerdik o..
aiiyoo..
i din realised it oso d..
keke ^.-

den 2day din go GBID..
so go lepak v fm at borders lo..
act wan planned 2 watched movie d..
but no movie which is nice o..
so din watched la..

at thr v chat bout things lo..
chat n chat..
nt noeing time was passed so fast o..
v talked n talked..
laughed n luaghed..
gt one uncle sit near us la..
oso cant tahan v us jor..
so he went away ald..
hehe..

after a while both of us kept on looking 4 books..
looking 4 biology books..
both of us oso sot jor d..
kaka xD
looking 4 pages related 2 menstrual cycle d..
wanna noe when was 2 ovum was fertilize o..
book by book..
sot jor ler..

den after tat fm n me do sumthing stupid n crazy d..
very swt oso d..
hehe.. ^.^"

den when i walked home..
at d lrt station thr..
i saw 2 gangs of boys..
they seems wan 2 beat other d..
so swt la..
one gang is chinese boys..
den another gang is indian boys..
luckily i walked away b4 they started anything lo..
^^

:: Un - ConTrol - Able ::

tat feeling came again 2day..
try my best 2 cope it..
try 2 hide it from anyone oso..
down, down, down & down again..
haiizzz..
promise ald 2 myself..
tat i wont do tat again..
but i cant manage fulfill my promise..
it rolls down by itself..
without my control..
T.T

~ C O N F I D E N C E ~

would it b hard 2 had ur confident in urself?

• always worried bout wat u supposed 2 do..
• always thinking bout d consequences after ur acts..
• always thought tat u r nt gud enuf in doin ur jobs..
• always thought tat other ppl r better den u..
• always thinking of d reasons y u r in tis position..

is it so difficult 4 u 2 noe realised sumthings ??

act u r capable..

coz everyone has their own capability..

a special capability..

which was differ den others..

wat u nid 2 do was..

believe in urself..

b confident 2 urself..

convince urself tat u can do it..

make ur own way..

>< Pr3tenD!nGs ><

1st week start sch o..
stil d same..my mood stil is unpredictable..
even myself oso cant catched up er..
so horrible la..
cant control it by myself..
nt handle carefully by myself oso..
sumtimes can b very gud..
bt..
sumtimes oso can b very bad..
sum kind of feeling controlling myself..
angry @ sad @ envy @ moody @ etc..
myself oso cant identify it..
brain kept on thinking d same things..
repeat n repeat..
jz like a slideshow..
pic by pic appear in my mind..


tis yr onwards..
i think every sat i oso very free..
coz every sat oso ald at home b4 7 pm..
no whr 2 go..
ntg 2 do..
no goin bek 2 church sumore..
always spent my time by goin summer or borders..
hehe.. xP


realised tat pretending was quite hard oso..
nid skills d..
nid experiences d..
nid time d..
nid emotion d..
oso nid 2 noe how 2 lies..
haha.. XD
den next time when pretend oso no ones noe bout it d..

Ends Up My Hols v a Dull Day !!

2day jz seems blurr blurr 2 me d..
coz i jz dun wan d hols 2 end up so fast..
i tot 2day was d 1st week of sun leh..
2day go tuition v ym..
felt tat d whole world oso die ald d..
many shops oso no open..
jz like d world was appeared in black n white ony..
no other colours..
i couldnt rmbr wat is goin on..
such a dull day i had 2day o..

after bek home oso stil d same..
coz ntg special happened 2day d..
jz simply watched my tv n on9..
act i was sleepy d whole day d..
but i dun wanna go sleep..
hehe.. xD

i jz kept on sms d whole day..
duno wat else i could do more..
very sienz la..
n oso no mood..
my mood oso jz similar d weather of 2day..
such all dull mood..
hard 2 cheers it up..
hard 2 predict oso..

*wish 2 sleep more n more..
*til its enuf 4 me..
*til im satisfy..
*til im energetic again..
*coz i reli had a very tired hols in my life tis time..
^^

++ DrunKy PaRenTs.. ++

haizz..
gv my dad n mum gek sei me la..
2 old woman n man oso very ma fan d..
keke.. xD [ jkz ony ]
2day my dad's b'day ma..
den they go 2 karaoke v their frenz..
2 enjoyed n celebrated at thr..
sure drinks alot d..
coz both of them d face oso bcame red red d..
haizz..
sure themselves oso duno wat they said bout d..
blurr blurr d..
me was busy..
but they kepts on disturbed me..
say go take my bro 2 c doc..
coz my bro sick ald..
i wonder how i supposed 2 take my bro 2 c doc..
i hav no car..
i hav no license..
walked thr ar ??
not make sense d..
after drunk ald bcame sot jor..

i most hate them always wanna drink..
but blurr blurr after drink..
reli wanna scold them d..
old ald stil dun wan take care of themselves..

__OnCe Aga!n BadMinTon__

2day go play badmminton once again..
5 ppl play..
me, ym, fm, py, n ws..
hehe..
act is 4 ppl ony d..
ym jz sit in d..
coz she dun wanna played..
den okie ler..
coz at last she did joined us n played oso d..

act 2day felt kinda weird d..
coz since last yr d hols began..
me, fm, py n ws nva go anywhr 2gather d..
4 of us nva go anywhr 2gather oso d..
mayb long time din go out 2gather jor..
kinda 'kek sui' d..
once v played double..
sure cant played well d..
den v finally split 2 two courts..
one court gt paid.. d other wan din paid..
hehe..
den played single lo..
ym joined us la..
den i began 2 go here go thr..
n helped each of them d..
means when they were played single..
i went into one of them n helped them..
bcame 2 persons vs 1 person..
hehe.. =b
4 of them bcum quite kelam-kabut d o..
coz of me running here n thr.. ^.-

when v played double tat time..
i was quite no mood d..
kinda frustrated jor..
coz i was abit sleepy n my eyes was tired..
den plus more cant played seriously d..
duno la..
mayb they was tired or wat la..
they played quite soft d..
i think i wanna 'fat sit' la..
so hope nt 2 played 2 soft..
bt nvm la.. ^^
at last hr i was quite crazy oso d..
n enjoyed myself 2..
keke..=)

2day reli tired o..
coz y'day ald cried n cried jor..
plus late sleep sumore..
nt enuf rest..
wahh.. tired lo..
2nite sure hav 2 sleep early d la..
keke..

~"~ ForEveR ThuRsDaY ~"~

2day early in d morning..
as my sis wanna go out 2 work..
sumthing happened..
sumthing tat my dad nva done b4..
except when i was stil in primary sch..
my dad done it 2 me..
but den i think it was nt serious..
wasnt as serious as 2day..
i was stun tis morning..
duno y wil happened..
everythings came suddenly..
i witnessed everything..

when i witnessed d whole scene..
my heart was again cracked..
it felt pain..
i nva wondered tis wil happened in my family..
wasai.. luckily i can hold my tears..
hehe.. ^.-
tis whole scene happened b4 i went 2 my tuition..

i done my things quickly b4 i went out..
i wanna gt away from tis hse as fast as possible..
i wanna gt away from my parents 2..
i dun wanna stayed a moment more..
haizz..
they gav me kinda a dissapointed feel..
but i noe tat they was heart-broken oso d..
v my sis..

its a kind of challenge 4 me..
pretend ntg was happened 2day..
avoid from my sad sad face..
dun wanna my frenz wondering wat happen 2 me..
so 2day kind of hard day d..
felt my heart kept on bleeding now..
very pain oso..
but ald used 2 it..
it bcum normal thing 4 me rite nw..

hope tat my tears wont drop anymore..
no matters wat happened..
no matters how pain i was..
jz dun wanna my tears drop even a single one..
i scared tat once my tears start 2 drop..
i was unable 2 stop it anymore..

!!! Long Khong 2 !!! I LoVe It Oo..

2day early in d morning ald giv my bro n sis woke me up..

haizz..

now everyday oso like tis d..

slept at 1.xx am..

woke up at 9.xx am..

walao ehh..

make me so tired la..

cant even slept 4 bout 10 hrs a day oso..

geramnya..

everyday oso felt sleepy like tat d..

den 2day ntg 2 do ma at home..

i mean when early in d morning tat time la..

after ate straight away opened my com lo..

2 continued d "Long Khong 2"..

a horror movie lai d..

very interesting oso lo..

quite scary oso o..

coz it told bout thai's curses..

it oso told bout a woman who had been cursed..

d ony way 4 her 2 broke d curse is..

by killed n ate d meat of d person who put d curse on her..

n she did it..

she did ate d meat of d person who killed by her..

n she oso tortured those ppl by let them suffered from fear b4 they died..

wahh.. very attractive lo..

bt oso quite scary d..

tis movie did left a deep image in my mind lo..

when i was watching movie..

my bro suddenly came near me n saw wat im doin..

den he watched d movie v me..

gt one part of tat movie quite shocked d lo..

den i was 2 concentrated jor..

when d ghost suddenly appeared..

i gt a shock..

den i straight away hugged my bro tightly la..

den after a while..

he said 2 me..

''if i was scared den dun watched la..''

den i told him..

''i wasnt scared la..''

''jz abit shocked ony la..''

den he said..

''if u wasnt scared den y u hug me o..''

i ans him..

''u cannot let me hug d meh ?? so ba bai..''

den i asked him 2 go away from me..

but he stil wanna stood bside me o..

whr gt kid like him so jin gak d..

den he did went away lo..

hmm.. bt o..

stil gt a part of tat movie which was quite scary d..

den i quickly asked him 2 came 2 me..

den when he stood bside me..

i quickly hugged him 1st..

in case thr is sumore ghost appeared..

hehe =b

2day i went out around 1.xx pm..

tot wanna went 2 dynamic n bought sum exercise books d..

den went thr duno which books 2 bought oso d..

duno which wan is better..

den py came n met me at thr lo..

i asked her which wan is better..

bt she ans me tat she duno o..

swt =.="..

den she helped me 2 called fm lo..

hehe.. ^^ [ nonid me 2 use my own fone credits ]

at last din bought any books oso..

coz fm wil borrowed 2 me n photostat d..

walao eh.. me n py spent time at dynamic n play at thr..

she tried pens which was gud oso need 2 take almost 1/2 hr leh..

wat an ah poh la..

den i went 2 borders lo..

py accompanied me walked til halfway lo..

coz she stil had 2 tuition after tat ma..

when i was at d borders..

i went 2 looked 4 d singapore ghost story book..

bt i cant even found any of it..

haizz.. nvm ler..

den i went 2 d child department thr lo..

looked 4 d mr. midnight's books..

i sat thr n read..

sat at thr almost 3 hrs o..

jz managed 2 read one book ony..

keke.. xD

den when almost d time 4 me 2 had my tuition..

i walked bek 2 berjasa lo..

wahh.. when i walked out from ts..

i saw 2 clouds was black black d..

scared it wil had a heavy rain la..

den i quickly walked bek lo..

luckily when i was almost reached ony it started 2 rain..

pheww ~~

den after tuition me n ym go kfc n ate our dinner lo..

coz both of us oso had ntg 2 ate at home..

at kfc v met w.vern hui..

she was waiting 4 her parents 2 fetch her home..

den v sat v her lo..

coz she was alone tat time..

very 'kek' lo when sitting v her..

she said many things..

den i duno wat 2 said 2 her..

coz not very close v her ma..

ntg 2 said lo..

(n_n)"

2day tot my parents wasnt at home d..

tot they stayed overnite outside d..

haizz..

they din even go out oso d..

*cant slept n on9 late 2day*

- after a long time -

2day go play badminton o..
long time din play jor o..
gt 5 ppl go 2day..
me, fm, ym, ws, pj..
ws came late er..
always she is d latest person d..
i think ws long time no c fm jor..
when c her kinda scared of her d..
ws always like tis d..
den me n ym go cut hair..
wait n wait 4 almost 1/2 hr leh..
ony managed 2 cut d hair..
aiiyoo.. ws, fm n pj waited us 1 hr outside thr..
hehe.. pai seh lo..
den me, fm n pj go summer eat..
ws n ym go bek home..
wahh.. fm n pj so lucky 2day o..
gt ppl fetch them d..
hmm.. so i wil had 2 walk home myself lo..
den i sambil walk sambil sms o..
hehe.. quite dangerous d..
almost cant c d car in front of me ler..

Bad Mood Always Affect My Frenzz.. N Oso Always Gt Realised By Them d.. ^^

a new month 4 all of us now..
June..
2day when i woke up..
i tot my mood very b quite nice d..
after all those bad mood days..
days v no smiles n laughs..

2day go tuition early in d morning..
around 10.30 am..
i tot i was late d..
but luckily i was thr b4 ym..
hehe..
den walked 2 tuition centre v ym lo..
ym accompany me go thr so early..
eventhough she gt no tuition at 10.50 am..
hehe.. so gud o.. gt ppl accompany me..

den after tuition n tuition..
i finally can escaped from tuition ler..
hehe.. ^^
but i realised tat my mood was gone..
cant reli laughed..
bt i tried 2 do so la..
i jz dun wan put my sad face in front of them..
i duno y la..
mayb my emosi was terganggu la..
haizz.. tis kind of prob again..
when wil tis prob get away from me ??

hmm.. 2day pj gt gav us everyone a present o..
she bought from thai wan..
keke.. ^.^" [ i din bought anything from thai last time tim .. ]
i took tat small basket of ice cream..
small small d.. quite cute oso d..
ohh.. 4get 2 said thx 2 her tim..
(n_n)"

duno y my mood would bcame like tis d lo..
y'day tot can chat v fm sure wil b nice d..
but o.. 2day was totally differ from my imagination..
i was out of mood..
but can c tat fm noe wat was goin v me d..
i think she purposely asked me 2 go bought zhan zhu lai cha d..
soh poh..
act 2day duno was goin v my heart o..
my heart kept on pounding n jz like kinda cut on it..
so weird la.. @.@ ???

den after tat..
around 3.x pm..
v go out from berjasa lo..
me n fm went 2 ts..
2 meet fm's aunt..
den py n sl went 2 dynamics b4 tuition..

at bus o.. fm told me many things bout her n tan lo..
bout d 2 days they went pak toh..
hehe.. quite funny d o..
reached ts.. me n fm went 2 watsons bought things tat fm needed d..
den around 4.15 pm..
fm went 2 find her aunt la..
den i was in d borders..
find sum books 2 read..
any books tat suits me..
den sat thr alone 4 almost 1 1/2 hrs ony jer..
read eng essay book..

i jz dun wanna went bek such early la..
eventhough ony my mum n bro at home..
i jz wanna find a place 4 me 2 stayed away from my frenz n family..
at 1st fm said tat she wan accompany me d..
but i was refused.. i asked her went find her aunt..
coz if she stay n accompany me..
sure she wil hav 2 took bus n went home d..
very ma fan d la.. she took bus..
sumore if she stayed v me at borders..
sure i wil borrow her shoulder n cried out d..
haha.. xD
tat time reli wil scared her lo..

when at borders tat time..
when i was reading d eng essay book..
very funny d..
gt 2 times my eyes filled v tears..
abit of tears ony la..
luckily no ones was thr..
wakaka..

den jz now my bro was looked at me..
my eyes was stil d same..
filled v tears..
i was very scared 2 gav anyone saw my crying face d lo..
very wat tat d lo..
den i lie 2 him tat i was sneezing..
haha.. he was stil small..
n he did believed was i said o..
keke.. little monster..
so did my mum 2..
she oso tot tat i was sick ald..
hehe.. as a result gav her scold..
so mo liu o..

i was jz wanna cried out 2 released my unreasonable prob..
coz through tis way.. i wil b better d..
plus a nice shower wil b more better 4 me..
tis 2 ways might help me 2 gt bek my smiles n laughs d o..
^^..

act it was waste of energy 2 worried bout me d..
coz anythings wil help me 2 gt bek 2 normal d..
especially is fm n py o..
coz 2day ym bek early..
2 of them spent more time v me at berjasa..
can c tat they oso weird weird d..
hehe..