FeRri$ Wh3eL

2ml is d graduation day lu..
so fast d Form 5 students hav 2 leave sch soon..
but til 2day ony everything start 2 bcum normal ald..
things change bac 2 its normal old time..
original..
lovely..
sweet..
memorable..
any probs automatically gt solved by itself..
same 4 misunderstoods..
enemies bcame frenz..
hehe..^^

everything was jz like a Ferris Wheel..
it bcum bad..
den went worst..
finally turns bac 2 normal..
its jz like goin round n round..
without knowing stop..
as u r alive..
u r one of d box at d Ferris Wheel..
waiting 2 reach d highest..
:: 4 things 2 cum 2wards u ::
n begins 2 falling down..
:: things start 2 bcum normal ::
finally wil go bac 2 d starting point..
:: d cycle wil b repeat ::

tis was human's life cycle..
``life begins at d starting point n tat wil b ur ending point too..``

Whr Is My GanG Ooo ..

since hols start..
5 of us seldom wil b 2gather ald lu..
act is start from tis yr onwards..
each of us always gt own activities d..
even no activities oso cant go out d..
or dun feel like wanna go out..
or d time no match each other..
sumtimes 3 ppl can d other 2 cant..
but sumtimes 2 ppl can d other 3 cant..
n etc etc la..
hmm.. many obstacles d la..

den tis time d hols reli make 5 of us like a san sand..
hehe..
coz our day was in differ way d..
~ * sweety go genting..
~ * honey stay at home..
~ * lui lui duno she wat time free..
~ * lou gong go serdang..
~ * den i go kfc..
wakaka.. xD
5 differ place n venue n activities oso o..
reli pui fuk my gang o..

hmm.. sumtimes kinda miss last yr d wonderful times d lo..
coz at least can group up tis 4 ppl 2 hav fun v me ma..
but now sure either 1 or 2 or 3 ony liao..
coz as i said..
sure wont b 5 in a group d..

act o..
2day when i kemas new hse tat time..
how i wish tat they was all in my new hse n helped me 2 clean up er..
tat time very coincidence lo..
fone was playing 'friends forever'..
hahah..(n_n)
[[ dreaming again lo.. ]]

ps :: but if they dun mind 2 help me.. den sure i oso wont mind d la.. keke.. xp

Having A Big Hse ????

a super tired day..
coz went 2 new hse thr n kemas kemas leh..
d hse was fully in mess d lo..
dust all over d hse..
hav 2 clean times n times o..
den ony can consider clean abit er..

cleaned almost all d rooms in d 2nd floor..
even tired til wan faint oso kept on cleaned it..
hmm...
1st time so hardworking gua..
cleaned til foot oso pain liao er..
hehe..

from 11 til 3 leh..
jz at d 2nd floor..
4 hrs at thr o..
wasai.. soh er..
finally finish lu..
can go 2 nap nap a while..
reli san sai d whole body..

haha.. using water 2 cleaned d floor was quite fun oso d..
coz jz like having a flood in d hse o..
luckily mum din came up..
if not sure gv her scold liao lu..

when busy o..
reli duno wat is hungry d lo..
d whole day din eat oso hav no feeling o..
except on d morning la..
den jz now b4 came bac home go eat 1st lo..
walao.. reli cant tahan ald..
very very very hungryyyyyyyyyyyyyy..
den eat til non stop d..
hehe..
wai sek ching..

so d moral value is having a big hse wasnt a gud thing 2..
=.="

normal

holiday start lu..
i mean 4 Form 5 ony la..
hehe ^^

but den ntg special oso d..
now d hols bcum normal 2 me lu..
coz now ony i realised tat Form 5 is having 2 much hols jor..
jz finish a hol den after few days gt another hols again o..
gt a bit sienz sienz d feeling lo..
but den after dec wan sch hols oso dun hav ald lu..
ald graduate jor..
kinda miss secondary sch d life d..
coz quite relax d..
except 4 exam time la..
keke..

duno wat wil goin 2 b in my life after Form 5 o..
very wonder lo..
hmm.. can i manage 2 handle all those things tat heading 2wards me??

hehe..
one things quite kebetulan d lo..
last time lou gong like 2 told me tat..
all d frenz can meet 2gather was cause of d situation around us..
if u r in d same class den v can b gud frenz..
but whenever u r in differ class den mayb will b less talk 2 each other jor..
den when i watch a movie oso gt tis kinda of dialogue appears o..
hehe.. so ngam o..

< RITE person n RITE time >

too fast to live, too young to die..
wat is d meaning of tis phrase ??
hmm..
mayb it says tat ntg is certain..
u cant make sure of it..
but u hav 2 appreciate it much..
especially person n time..

once d time passes..
u wil nva catch it bac..
as d saying goes..
time n tide wait for no man..
its totally true..

d other wan is person..
thr is many ppl around u..
but its hard 2 find a person tat u loved..
ur family, frenz, lover, etc..
try 2 spent time wit them..
they wont able b always b side of u..
its impossible..
as human was selfish..

__________________________________________________

these few days i was sick ald..
den d more i stay at home d more i gt 2 noe d person around me..
on mon nite..
i was teribble sick..
coz my fever was high..
til my eyes oso bcum red n body jz like burning..
i hardly ony can fall into sleep..
tat time i was alone at home..
when they bac..
my parents duno y suddenly argue again..
they was argueing loudly..
til i was awake..
den 4 sure i gt angry..
so my mum cum in n look 4 me..
den she ask me whether stil gt fever..
den i jz cant hold on jor..
jz loudly tel them 2 b quiet..
coz i wanna sleep..
n they did..
eventhough they wanna argue oso stop argueing..
hehe..
coz of me..

y'day my ah gong ask me 2 go 2 his hse coz wanna check on which wan is d guarantee card..
den at 1st i dun like d..
but i had 2 go oso..
so i went 2 his hse..
i was imbalance when walking up 2 his hse..
den my legs felt pain oso d..
mayb coz 2 bengkak jor..
after search 4 d card den i sit thr 4 a while..
since i very seldom visit them..
they tel me many things..
ah gong say one thing den ah po oso say one thing..
they can even say their things at d same time..
den i reli duno whose wan 2 listen lo..
hehe..
mayb they too long din c me..
gt many things 2 tel me jor..
den suddenly ah gong tel me bout moving them 2 d new hse..
my dad wan them 2 live wit us d..
but mum dun wan..
coz sure they wil argue d..
but den ah gong n ah po decided not 2 move n stay at here..
den they ask me whenever i was free n had a car den go visit them..
den ah gong oso say tat they noe i very sayang them..
tat time my heart kinda a crack up..
my eyes start 2 filled wit tears jor..
but i hold on my tears..
tat time my mind jz appears a phrase..
** i nva appreciate them.. **

~ from the bottom of my broken heart ~

:- LyRicS -:


"Never look back," we said
how was I to know I'd miss you so?
Loneliness up ahead
emptiness behind
Where do I go?
And you didn't hear
all my joy through my tears
all my hopes through my fears
did you know
still I miss you somehow?
From the bottom of my broken heart
there's just a thing or two I'd like you to know
you were my first love
you were my true love
from the first kisses to the very last rose
from the bottom of my broken heart
even through time may find me somebody new
you were my real love
I never knew love
'til there was you
from the bottom of my broken heart
Baby,I said
please stay
Give our love a chance for one more day
we could have worked things out
taking time is what love's all about
But you put a dart
through my dreams
through my heart
and I'm back where I started again
never thought it would end
From the bottom of my broken heart
there's just a thing or two I'd like you to know
you were my first love
you were my true love
from the first kisses to the very last rose
from the bottom of my broken heart
even through time may find me somebody new
you were my real love
I never knew love
'til there was you
from the bottom of my broken heart
You promised yourself
but to somebody else
and you made it so perfectly clear
still I wish you were here
From the bottom of my broken heart
there's just a thing or two I'd like you to know
you were my first love
you were my true love
from the first kisses to the very last rose
from the bottom of my broken heart
even through time may find me somebody new
you were my real love
I never knew love
'til there was you
from the bottom of my broken heart
Never look back,we said
how was I to know I'd miss you so?

FunG MoK

i reli had bad luck er..
always sick d..
especially tis yr er..
reli wan die jor..
cant tahan jor..
everytime oso like tis..
when wan go sumwhr or do sumthing..
sure i began 2 sick d..
ruin up d plan d..
very jin gak d lo..
sick oso pick a suitable day 2 sick la..
stupid d..
yerrrr... gek sei me la..

tis time get fung mok tim ga..
more serious leh..
last time ony normal fever n flu ony d..
but tis time not ony tat ar..
now my whole hands oso red red d..
my face oso er..
quite itchy oso d leh..
now my whole body oso heng heng d..

jz now when umaas class reli wan sei jor..
d 1st 2 hrs reli damn hot d..
like my whole body burning jor..
den face bcum red lo..
tat 2 hrs reli felt uneasy d..
dun wan talk anything er..
wan calm myself down d..
den d next few hrs began 2 biasa ald..
but stil hot..
din sweat oso o..
tis make me felt more bad er..
if gt sweat den stil okie d..
but how hot oso i din sweat anything leh..
haizz..

den wat they ask me oso i jz cincai ans them d..
hehe..
din talk 2 them oso..
den ym very cham lo..
coz sit v me..
sure i din talk 2 her d..
den she oso ntg 2 talk v pooi yee oso o..
act she shudnt sit v me d lo..
keke..
sumore 2day plan dun wan go umaas d class d..
but cant er..
sai see n honey d coupon v me leh..
if i din go den both of them sure cant attend d class d..
den sumore d refundable money will gone d lo..
hmmm..
luckily i stil gt go la..
hehe..

2day after class when went bac tat time very funny lo..
hehe..
all tis time ony honey wil cal py baby d ma..
den duno wat happen o wat la..
mayb siew bee ald affected by honey..
she call py baby er..
wakaka..
everyone oso stun jor lo..
den v laughed very loud oso o..
d whole petaling street oso look at us jor..
duno wats wrong v us er..
reli funny lo..
siew bee 2day duno wat happen 2 her d lo..
mayb hols mood is like tis d la..
^^

now make them cant go 2 serdang jor..
haizz..
i always wil b d 'po wai wong' d..
keke..
if im not sick..
sure next tues can go jor..
now cant lu..
reli disappointed er..
luckily d company camp postpone jor er..
if not sure i waste d rm 100 d..
pay ald but cant go leh..
hehe..

den now hav 2 stay at home n guai guai d rest er..
sienz lo..
jz now my mum n dad kept on ask me 2 apply tis apply tat..
eat tis eat tat..
do exercise..
aiyoo..
den sai see oso ask me 2 drink more water n drink black sugar solution er..
hehee..
i make my own experiment o..
^^

~AmaZinG HunT~ plus ~TeleMaTcH~

erhh ~~
my whole body was very pain er..
from d moment i woke up tis morning..
muscle extremely pain..
hard 2 move leh..
shoulder pain..
back oso pain..
buttocks now pain 2 side..
foot oso felt pain when walked leh..
add voice change jor..
sei la..
reli played til whole body musnah lo..

hehe..
d story is like tis d..

y'day was sat ma..
den sumore is our pess sch gb d last meeting..
den v planned 2 hav max joys lo..
1st.. gt amazing hunt d..
2nd.. gt telematch..
all oso held by our committees d..
walao.. reli tired leh..
hav 2 planned..
hav 2 carried out..
hav 2 played by members oso leh.
hehe..
v played water n flour at d netball court thr..
wasai.. played til very crazy leh..
til ms. hor oso scold jor..
keke xp

those members were reli crazy in playing games d lo..
coz when telematch tat time o..
i almost gt flour kena on me leh..
coz of them la..
haizz..
make me wet n dirty oso d..
but oso having fun d la..

5 of us ald sot jor after d telematch..
me, honey, lou gong, ym n ws..
stil played v water..
coz v not having enuf fun when telematch tat time ma..
den start 2 poured water 2 each other la..
hahahaha..

1st v dun dare 2 poured water 2 honey d..
coz she sensitive ma..
den plus she oso din bring unders leh..
but lastly she offered herself 2 played v us d o..
wakakaka..
v sure wont miss tis chance d la..
den straight away poured her til max lo..

den ws ald sure all wet d la..
especially when telematch tat time..
kena poured water by gals o..
she always kena d..
coz those gals wil very automatically poured her d..
so she sure cant escaped d..

ym is d most less gt poured water by me d la..
but duno y she stil looked extremely wet d lo..
d whole body oso wet d leh..
mayb she kena poured by others d la..
hehe.. so cham o..
den her hair yeng lo..
gt many flour lo..
aiyoyo..

lou gong more cham er..
coz she gt hurt by me o..
hehe ^^
act im not purposely d..
coz 2 of us poured water 2 each other ma..
den i accidently hit her forehead v d pail er..
den her forehead gt bengkak la..
luckily din bleed o..
sry er lou gong..

den my foot was very pain lo..
when prepared d games 4 telematch..
jz like wanna burnt jor..
coz my foot was naked n stepped on d floor leh..
den later my throat very pain oso er..
haizz..
sei mou..
i sick ald stil wanna play water game o..
luckily din gt fever er..
if not i sei d la..
hehe..

~ Pk Looooo ~

aiyo..
2day reli duno wats wrong v me d lo..
reli pk day la..

after sch o..
i was in my way getting down from d hall..
haizz.. =.="
i fall down er..
at tat moment i was totally 'ma bei' jor..
i sat at d staircase 4 a moment lo..
den i tried 2 stood up n walked..
i walked 2 d long chair n sat on it..
walao..
pain lo..
almost half of my buttock gt burst lo..
luckily tat time my tears din hav d feel 2 fall down o..
if not sure i very fish liao d lo..
coz when i fall tat time, thr was a group of karate ppl looked at me er..
pai seh sei la..
=.=

but i stil walked here walked thr d..
keke..
[[ stil duno how 2 write d 'pain' word o.. ]]

~~~ A Suitable PHRASE for Me, Myself ~~~

i was getting bigger n bigger now..
my age oso kept on increasing..
my life now was getting harder n harder..
now ony i realised tat life wasnt like wat i expected when i was small..
its much more complicated..
tis proved tat kids were such innocent bout their future..
its coz they were pampered by their parents n family..
they were fully protected..
they were very very lucky..
they had their wonderful child memories..
which filled v joys n laughters..
it seldom had d attendance of tears n sadness..

last time when i was a small kid..
i used 2 b like other kids..
had my own wonderful child memories..
although my parents were a couple of young married..
they were poor at 1st..
but those time were sweet 2 me..
everywhr v went..
its sure 2 b 3 of us..
dad, mum n me.. [[ sis haven born yet ]]
eventhough dad went 2 other states 4 worked..
v were 2gather..

i stil could rmbr tat..
how poor were v..
how hard was our lives..
dad would always bought small toys 4 me..
( dad couldnt afford toys which is expensive )
whenever he bought me toys..
i would always laughed n ran towards him 2 snatched my new toys..
hehe (n_n)

moreover dad always loved 2 watched me laughed when i was small..
coz whnever its a meal time..
i would b very happy n rushed towards those foods..
therefore i could b considered as a child who r very very loved 2 ate..
coz of tis i had my body figure now..
wakaka..

last time when i was in primary..
i always wondering bout y i was always sent n fetched by my parents..
but some of my frenz could took bus 2 sch by their own..
hmmm.. tat time d ques ''y'' was appearing in my mind..
however by d time my parents stopped sending n fetching me..
n i had 2 take bus 2 everywhr i wanna went..
at 1st i was felt okie v d way of taking bus..
but now i was frustrated v tat..
by tat time i realised d truth was..
its very nice 2 hav my parents sending n fetching me..
whenever i wanna go..
hmm.. it couldnt b happened jor..
coz i was getting bigger now..
everything had 2 b solved by myself..
i couldnt jz depended on my parents all d time..
i had 2 learn how 2 get up when i fell down..
~~~ '' get up from whr u fall '' ~~~

*~* ! StaY !n LoVe *~*

:: LyRiCs ::


baby, i stay in love with you

dying inside cause i can't stand it
make or break up
can't take this madness
we don't even really know why
all i know is baby i
try and try so hard
to keep our love alive
if you dont' know me at this point
then i highly doubt you ever will
i really need you to give me
that unconditional love i used to feel
it's no mistaking
we're just erasing
from our hearts and minds

and i know we said let go
but i kept on hanging on
inside i know it's over
you're really gone
it's killing me
cause there ain't nothing
that i can do
baby, i stay in love with you

and i keep on telling myself
that you'll come back around
and i try to front like 'oh well'
each time you let me down
see i can't get over you
now no matter what i do
baby, baby
i stay in love with you

na na na na na na na na na
na na na na na na na na na
na na na na na na na na na

baby, i stay in love with you

it cuts so deep
it hurts down to my soul
my friends tell me
i ain't the same no more
we still need each other
when we stumble and fall
how we gon' act
like what we had
ain't nothin' at all

what i wanna do is
ride shot-gun next to you
with the top down like we used to
hit the block

....................

we both know our heart is breaking
can we learn from our mistakes
i can't last one moment alone

we said let go
but i kept on hanging on
inside i know it's over
you're really gone
it's killing me
cause there ain't nothing
that i can do
baby, i stay in love with you

and i keep on telling myself
that you'll come back around
and i try to front like 'oh well'
each time you let me down
see i can't get over you
now no matter what i do
baby, baby
i stay in love with you

*~* Bye Bye *~*

:: LyRiCs ::


this is for my peoples
who just lost somebody
your best friend, your baby
your man or your lady
put your hand way up high
we will never say bye
no, no, no
mamas, daddys, sisters, brothers
friends and cousins
this is for my peoples
who lost their grandmothers
lift your head to the sky
cause we will never say bye
as a child there were them times
i didn't get it
but you kept me in line
i didn't know why
you didn't show up sometimes
on sunday mornings and i missed you
but i'm glad we talked through
all them grown folk things
separation brings
you never let me know it
you never let it show
because you loved me and obviously
there's so much more left to say
if you were with me today
face to face
i never knew i could hurt like this
and everyday life goes on i wish
i could talk to you for a while
miss you but i try not to cry
as time goes by

and it's true that you've
reached a better place
still i'd give the world to see your face
and be right here next to you
but it's like you're gone too soon
now the hardest thing to do is say
bye bye
bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
bye bye
you never got a chance to see
how good i've done
and you never got to
see me back at number one
i wish that you were here
to celebrate together
i wish that we could
spend the holidays together
i remember when you used to
tuck me in at night
with the teddy bear you gave me
that i held so tight
i thought you were so strong
you'd make it through whatever
it's so hard to accept the fact
you're gone forever
i never knew i could hurt like this
and everyday life goes on i wish
i could talk to you for a while
miss you but i try not to cry
as time goes by
and it's true that you've
reached a better place
still i'd give the world to see your face
and be right here next to you
but it's like you're gone too soon
now the hardest thing to do is say
bye bye
bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
bye bye
this is for my peoples
who just lost somebody
your best friend, your baby
your man or your lady
put your hand way up high
we will never say bye
mamas, daddys, sisters, brothers
friends and cousins
this is for my peoples
who lost their grandmothers
lift your head to the sky
cause we will never say bye, bye.

i never knew i could hurt like this
and everyday life goes on i wish
i could talk to you for a while
miss you but i try not to cry
as time goes by
and it's true that you've
reached a better place
still i'd give the world to see your face
and be right here next to you
but it's like you're gone too soo

untitle ^^

haha..
finally my com okie ald lu..
cant wait 2 start my blog jor..
^^

last sun went 2 extra class 4 add maths at nirwana college er..
tat class need coupon ony can attend d..
den my coupon n oso ym d coupon was in my file..
but my file was in off. anita d car leh..
sei lo.. tat day was worried leh..
i cant attend nvm..
but sure ym wil killed me d..
coz tat coupon was a refundable coupon leh..
worth rm 5 d..
but den off. manage 2 gv me bac on sun la..
hehe.. [[always ma fan her d.. coz i was very ''dai tou ha'']]
on tat sun oso jinn gv my b'day present 2 me o..
it was a necklace.. v a clover inside d..
very nice o..
she helped me 2 put on oso er..
n_n

y'day was d last day of our F5 program skor A..
wahh.. tat day was very tired o..
n sleepy sumore leh..
sumore mood was abit imbalance..
hehe.. so very ''kek sui'' la..
d last sub was chem..
i felt asleep at d last mins..
den awaken by honey leh..
yerr.. felt like dun wan wake up er..
but i had 2 wake up oso..
coz they wan arranged bac those chairs n tables..
after tat i go canteen n sleep again lu.. xD
but b4 tat i had 2 take photos which off. anita need d..
i slept n slept..
trying 2 find a comfortable place n ways 2 sleep..
at last i found it.. but den jz manged 2 sleep 4 a while ony er..
swt.. =.="
ald 2 lo.. when v wanna go eat..
aiyer.. gek sei la..
tat sui lou reli crazy d..
always make ppl felt like wan beat her d..
always find fight d..
i ask her 2 b quick..
coz v all ald hungry jor..
den she stil sit at thr finding songs..
#$%^&*!#^
wah.. fire was burning jor..

y'day i asked bout honey d kai ma..
asked how was her health..
but den honey say stil d same lo..
den she said tat dun wan mention la..
den okie lo.. i din asked more lo..
den after a while she showed me a msg..
saying tat she dun wan mention bout her kai ma..
she dun like ppl asked bout her kai ma oso..
den i und y liao..
so stop asking honey bout her kai ma d things la..
hehe.. [[ warning o.. ]]

from :: YM :: WS :: PY :: ~ lai lai, sui zai, sui lou ~

from :: HONEY ::

celebration ~ buf.day ^^

wakaka xD..
2day is my b'day o..
older 1 yr jor..
but nvm ler..
coz im born 2 b old d la..
^.-

wahh.. d time reached 12 am..
immediately gt ppl msg me lo..
say hapi b'day 2 me liao..
but gt 3 soh pohs more bad er..
reached 12 am they ald call me..
tat time i was sleeping d o..
den once i ans d call..
they straight away sing hapi b'day song 4 me lu..
in differ version sumore o..
walao er.. 3 of them reli cute o..

den honey oso gt send mms 4 me..
hehe..
she edit herself d o..
very nice o..
like it very much o..
thx honey..
den at sch oso quite suprise d lo..
they sing song 4 me n xin ni er..
haha.. my partner of b'day..
den they ald prepare a cake 4 me d..
but i duno la..^^
they cum out v d cake suddenly d lo..
thx 2 all of them er..
my lovely classmates..

sumore sai see, li foon n sin thung gv me a present o..
its a chocolate er..
haha..
jz suits my taste..
when i open up tat present..
i was very hapi d lo..
coz tis is d 1st time i gt a chocolate as my b'day present o..
very like it o..

after tat go ym hse more geng o..
5 of us cook at her hse..
ym ald prepare b4 v came d..
but luckily gt a few more haven cook yet..
den ony i can play cooking at thr o..
wahaha..
den 5 of us eat 2gather o..
not bad oso er ym d cooks..
can b eat wan..xDD

after eat v go c sum edition make by them wan..
its in a cd wan..
wahh..
very sweet lo..
gt many ppl d wishes inside d..
den throughout d cd v was laughing lo..
very loud tim er..
love it n 4 of them very very muchhhh er..

hehe..
tis yr gt a very special b'day oso er..
differ from last yr d..
last yr i eat 3 cakes..
but in differ days la..
den tis yr 2 cakes n a meal in d same day..
wakaka..
if every yr oso like tis den gud lo..
i sure song sei wan..
haha.. [ jkz ony la ]


SPECIAL THX 2 MY F.R.I.E.N.D.S.
ym, honey, lou gong, ws, sai see, n etc..
so many la..
til i oso cant write all inside er..
hehahokakekowahawahewaho..

daddy.. my security guard..

hehe..
so late oso i haven sleep er..
stil chatting o..
stil dun wan get off from 2 com..
coz now no ones scold me ma..
dad sleep ald..
den mum, sis n bro go bac 2 grandma hse jor..
i alone here lo..
hehe..^^

hmm..
tis week i was having a terrible mess week la..
how bout next week leh??
wil it b d same as tis week??
i hope it wont ler..
keke xDD..
den i wont hav 2 fan those nonsense things ald lu..

2day study at starbucks v honey o..
den hope can study like tis everyday er..
no ppl keep on calling me..
asking whr m i..
^^

but i think if i gt time i wil do so d..
coz reli comfortable at thr o..
i jz wan a place whr i can reli do my revision d..
tats enuf ald..
coz i noe tat sch wasnt a rite place 4 me 2 do my revision jor..
i felt very annoying at sch 2 do my revision d..
sumore very hot n noisy er..
cant tahan er..
aiiyerrrrrrrr..

den 2day i reli pk liao lo..
coz no money er..
ony gt rm 20..
den drink starbucks d mocha sumore..
sei lo.. more pk er..
den jz go home eat maggi lo..
kinda like 2 eat maggi oso d..
hehe..

den when my dad cum bac..
he ask me whether i gt buy food 2 eat anot..
den i told him tat i eat maggi ald..
he noe tat i dun hav $$ jor..
he den giv me rm 50..
he ask me 2 keep it in wallet..
how can a gal no $$ in d wallet d??
he said..

lovely dad o..
(^.^)

~ TrouBleSome ~

tis week was my worst week after all..

coz starting from mon til wed..
i had been scolded by my mum liao..
all coz of my sis..

wat i had done ??
i jz wan try 2 help my sis..
but i oso wanna help my mum oso..
so i bcame d middleman btw them..
middleman btw 2 persons who r selfish..
both of them nva think of me d..
nva think of my feelings..
nva think of my position..
nva think tat how much suffer i had..
all coz of them..

n oso coz of them..
i cried 4 many times..
almost everyday oso i had my tears rolling down my cheek..
sumore my mum's words was quite hurting..
coz she nva think of my feelings when scolded me..
she jz throws out words tat she wanna scold me..
in her heart..
she think i was d one who suppose 2 take care of my sis..
she nva think tat how im suppose 2 handle tis..
one is my sis..
one is my mum..
she jz tot tat i shud told her everythings bout my sis..
instead of hiding her from everything tat my sis had done..
she is kinda selfish [[4 me]]..

n my sis oso d same..
same as my mum..
other selfish ppl [[4 me oso]]..
she jz kept on doin things tat she like..
kept on doin things tat she enjoyed..
coz she tot her sis [me] wil help her..
help her 2 hide everythings from my mum..
n i did help her alot..
in lying my mum..
n im tired 2 did so..

everytime when my mum noe my sis's act..
sure d 1st person who gt scolded was me..
i was d 1st who bcame her victim..
n many times i tried 2 hold my tears..
jz let her scold..
although its hard la..
coz i wil b okiie after she stop scolding me..

but tis week my sis was ponteng her sch..
den everyone was finding me..
2 noe whr my sis went to..
wat my sis did..
[ms. khoo n my mum oso]..
my mum even came 2 my sch 2 scolded me..
coz i din told her tat my sis ponteng..
hmm..
reli wan 2 cried d lo tat day..
but i tried 2 hold my tears..
i tried 2 calm myself down..
i managed 2 do it o..
hehe.. i din cried at sch er..

who noe wat will happen at tat nite..
as i reached home..
rite after d moment i call my mum..
she started 2 scold me..
haha..
d ony time her words was reli hurt o..
makes me reli cried in front of her..
[ i was eating tat time.. ]
my tears rolled down like a opened tap water er..
non stop d lo..
swt =.="

my dad more geng la..
he can jz stay away from tis kind of situation o..
by goin home late..

tat time i reli duno y i wanna did so much lo..
since d one who did wrong wasnt me..
n oso d one who wanna teach her daughter oso wasnt me..
haizz..

hope they wont disturb me anymore..
i think i was not able 2 bear all tis anymore..
family's prob.. spm.. proposals.. minutes.. studies..

``stupid gal``

hehe..
2day gt sch er..
2day was sat er..
but hav 2 ganti sch 4 d cuti..
den tis morning played til quite hapi d..
at sch la..
can consider as a gud mood d..
^^

den after sch go out n read undang lo..
v honey n lou gong..
3 of us very ham er..
kept on find a suitable place 2 raed o..
but cant..
coz duno y 2day everywhr oso so many ppl..
haizzz..
at last stay at starbucks lo..

stay at thr 4 bout few hrs o..
coz of tat undang..
hehe ^^..

den i duno y mood can chage so fast d lo..
hehe..
when sitting at d sofa..
after an hr like tat..
i bcum dun wan say anything er..
duno wat 2 say..
eventhough honey try 2 make a conversation v me..
but i stil gv her a same reaction..
i jz simply laugh n den look bac 2 my undang book..
sry er honey..
i wasnt purposely do tat d..
coz my body was jz like having fever..
felt uncomfortable..
den my heart oso..
i felt uneasy v tat kind of feeling..
i noe its time 4 me 2 go home..
its ald 6..

den dia n ym cal honey lo..
asking tat whr r v..
den they oso saying tat they wil cum n find us..
den okie lo..
mayb i wait til they cum den i better go home..

after a long time den ony they cum..
its almost 8 jor..
den i reli struggle lo..
i duno whether i shud go home now or wat..
coz if i go home now sure ym wil go home late alone d..
haiiz..

den i tel ym tat i wanna go home jor..
but she ask me 2 wait 4 her..
hmm..
den i jz say okiie lo..
den my feeling bcum worst n worst..
den i cant stand lo..
den jz go toilet lo [[ as i was very 'kap' ]]..
i went down 2 lg d toilet instead of 3rd floor d toilet..
den i take almost 15 mins lo..
i wanna call home 2 tel mum d..
but no ones at home..
den i go 7-11 buy credits..
den i went bac 2 3rd floor..
ym n lou gong were finding me o..
hehe.. sry oso 2 both of them..
making them worry..

den they say wan go home lo..
den i sure feel gud la..
coz go home leh..
den ym, lou gong n me walked bac lo..
but ym say wan go eat 1st den ony go home..
i sure say okiie d la..
coz she haven eat yet..
den lou gong go bac lo..
i teman ym go eat 'lou yi'..
she eat n i read my undang book lo..
hehe..

den my sis ask me 2 wait her den ony go home..
den i say dun wan lo..
coz she wanna bac at 9.xx o..
so late la..
den after eat v go bac home lo..

when reach home..
mum start 2 scold la..
den i jz went 2 bath lo..
she keep on scold n scold..
she said tat y 2day is ganti sch i oso din tel her..
coz my sis din go 2 sch ma..
den my mum kinda blame it on me lo..
den she say y i stil wanna help n protect my sis..
den i din say anything lo..
coz i was crying d..
den i dun wan let her noe ma..
den keep quiet lo..

i jz keep on doin my things lo..
i was ironing d clothes..
den my tears keep on rolling down..
i oso dun wan let my dad noe it 2..
luckily my hairs long enuf..
hehe xDD
can cover my face n tears oso er..

act my mum d words kinda hurt d..
coz i wasnt help my sis d..
i oso duno she went out..
den i tot she at home d..
but my mum stil tot i help her er..
sumore i din explain 2 her oso..
coz i dun wan explain ald jor..
so tired er..
explain oso no one hear d..
no one und d..
den i cant stand jor..
den cry jor..
wakaka xDD..

__________s t u p i d___g a l___ o n___2 d a y__________

=.= stressin around d corner =.=

2day i think i finally noe tat d time left 4 me 2 sit 4 my SPM was jz a few month..
i finally noe tat thr is no time 4 me 2 playing fool around anymore..
hmmm..
hav 2 b more serious again jor..
hav 2 work hard in order 2 gt wat i wan..

start 2 hav stress on me jor..
duno wat hav 2 b start 1st..
no aim..
no direction..
no determination..
im getting confused bout tis..
whether i wanna gt wat i wan ???
or i jz wanna let it go jz like tat ???
without trying at all ???
hmmm..
i think i cant la..
coz tis is not exactly who m i..
^^


but now im stil finding my way 2 gt through tis 'wall'..
a quite high d 'wall' [SPM]..
wat i hav 2 noe is which way i gonna use 2 climb through tis 'wall'..
i cant jz sit at here n wait 4 sumone 2 cum n help me..
its an impossible things..
neither my frenz nor my family is able 2 help me..
if i ald gv up b4 i try 2 climb tis 'wall'..
[[ ..jz as wat ms. lee told us 2day.. ]]

sumtimes i quite like 2 hear ms. lee 2 mumble 2 us..
coz she noe wat is d best 4 us..
as she had been sch teacher 4 so many yrs..
so much experiences o..
hehe..^.-

___________________________________________________________

act o..
2day my mood at sch was quite bad d..
coz of tis stupid stress lo..
sumore nt enuf sleep leh..
sure gt a bit unstable d la..
keke..
den wanna b a 'ham bao ching' again o..
wanna told sai see d..
but din oso..
coz o..
she so hapi coz gt streamyx ald instead of tmnet..
hehe.. wat a silly gal.. n_n

anyways..
at last of sch ald okiie jor..
coz can watch free show er..
wakaka.. xD
perform by honey n ws o..
both of them bin tai d..
play til so crazy..
honey molest ws o..
ws d reaction very big d lo..
screams n jump here jump thr..
jz like a monkey la..
haizzz..
luckily v all ald biasa jor..
especially those who sit near them o..
=.="

2day d last sub is bi er..
double period sumore..
sumting kek sui d things happen ler..
suddenly ms. lee call out d names of those who din pass up book from february..
den im one of them.. =.="
aiiyoo..
kena jor..
den gt 6 ppl lo.. [ guess ony ]
6 of us hav 2 sit d most in front of her leh..
yerrr.. very hard 2 tahan d lo..
den gt me, py, ws, lf, sw, bk..
den 6 of us sit pair by pair d..
py v me, ws v lf, sw v bk..
den she oso say tat everytime bi period oso hav 2 sit like 2day..
aiiyerr..
means i hav 2 sit v py lo..
sure cant tahan d..

act i was sitting v jy d..
but duno y py oso kena coz din pass up book..
den py hav 2 sit in front oso..
tis make sai see hav 2 sit v jy o..
sai see so mou gu o..
keke..
hav 2 sit v sumore tat is so hak yan chang d..

___________________________________________________

den 2day teman ym go secret recipe..

buy cake 4 sumone..

den after tat ym n py go home..

left me n py la..

both of us go do hw at summer..

i think both of us mayb play at thr instead of do hw o..

play n play.. den eat n eat..

she keep on urut my thumb leh..

d injured wan leh..

she kept on find whr is d pain..

den i reli scared she can find whr is d pain lo..

i try 2 take bac my hands..

wahh.. her energy quite strong oso o..

den gt sumtimes she managed 2 find d pain..

coz she incidently bent my thumb..

but den i stil hold my emotions..

prevent she noe whr is it..

if she noe..

sure she wil urut d..

den sure i scream n cry d..

coz reli pain la..

T.T

honey 2day kek sui er..

suddenly tel me tat she was unhappy ler..

during chemist..

huh?? wat happen leh??

is her kai ma gt anything ma??

or her family gt anythings happen o??

reli gt things happen makes her unhappy d ma??

hmmm.. y she always told ppl halfway ony d..

?-?

!!! Rainy Day !!!

2day seems very moody o..
i mean most of my frenz..
included me oso la..
coz i was in my period time n raining 2day errly in d morning sumore..
haizzz.. make me dun wanna talk so much la..
[[ speechless ]]

but i duno y they was such a quiet 2day o..
usually they wont d..
sure gt many things 2 talk bout d..
hmm.. wat happens leh??

lc is one of them..
she duno y ald move 2 other place when thr was an empty place..
den left me alone lo..
its stil okiie..
coz i think she probably wanna study d..
den i din hav 2 think 2 much..
keke.. ^^

den honey is d other one..
duno y o..
she 2day quite kek sui d o..
she go sit v lc b4 recess 2day..
den go sit v sai see after recess..
din sit at her own place d..
hmm.. she no mood wanna talk v us??
or she thinkng of her kai ma??
but how unhappy oso she wont scold us d..
keke.. ^^

d 3rd wan is sai see..
coz i sit alone den py cum n sit v me a while lo..
den she seems very quiet during tat time o..
she kept on read her book..
she usually very talkative d o..
den when maths tat time i go sit v her lo..
left py thr alone v sleeping ws..
wakaka xD..
den i disturb her lo..
den she gv me sum response lo..
okiie lo if like tat..
after a while den she bcum usually again..
but when say bout her things..
she bcum no mood again d..
haizz..
wat happen leh??
who is she leh??
hmm.. is sai see srgue v 'her'??
mayb sai see wil tel me one day d..
keke.. ^^

hmm.. i hink 2day d most abormal wan is py lo..
she 2day duno wat happen la..
totally differ from us d..
ppl no mood..
she gt mood d lo..
sumore is a very gud mood leh..
aiiyoo..
wat kind of person is she d o??
always wan differ from others..
..alien..
=.="