~ C L o u D S ~

2day suddenly feel d sky very pretty d o..

it gt many shape..

it can let u having sum imaginations..

it makes u feel comfortable when looking at it..

it makes u 4get bout ur stress..

it makes u wanna feel it v ur touch..

it makes u wanna getting closer 2 it..

it makes u wanna lay on it..

it makes u wanna sleep on it..

_ C L O U D S _ M A K E S _ M E _ F E E L _ G O O D _^ ^_

WaTs WronG V M!e o ?? ~haizz~

lately, i felt myself weird weird d..

duno wats goin on v me la..

cant determine d reason oso d..

i was 2 lazy 2 speak non-stop v ppl ald..

coz i had ntg 2 say..

i cant think of other words 2 let it out of my mouth..

not always la..

but mostly d la..

myself oso fan la..

wanna get gud results n show 2 my parents d..

but..

i cant even study properly now..

non of those words from my revision book can get into my brain..

so irritated la..

wanna do sumting but cant keep my promise even a single word..

useless d..

but i reli dun wan ppl 2 look down on my family..

especially my parents..

although they r nt such educated..

they was not those ppl who abandoned us aside..

they pick up their responsibilities 2 sara us..

4 me..

they had done their jobs very well..

sumtimes i think ppl who likes 2 keeps their promise will b a better person 2 those who din even mind 2 keeps their promise..

at least they nva makes ppl feel disappointed v them so much..

if compare v those ppl who always break their promise..

always makes ppl disappointed n irritated v them d..

i can play very crazy at sch at a short period..

but i oso can b very serious at a long period..

mayb tis a way 4 me 2 make myself avoid from feeling regret when i cant keep my promise..

at least i was serious b4 ma..

[[ a kind of stupid way 2 avoid regret ]]

xD

Prepared by,

unpromiseable gal

%$^&#!* SumTh!nGs HearD By M!e... GeramNya $#%*&^!

i tink its on sun la..

all my family members oso at home lo..

no one was out tat day..

everyone bcum guai guai jor lu..

haha..:P

suddenly my dad say wan go eat KFC o..

den okie lo..

since i ald long time no eat KFC jor..

but my mum at 1st refused n saying tat she ald cook d porridge..

but at last oso gt out n eat KFC v us la..

coz my bro keeps on saying wan go eat ma..

den she oso go lo..

no choice jor..

hehe..

since v hav 2 go out den sure hav 2 go bath d la..

den i go bath 1st lo..

coz no one wan go bath ma..

while i bath o..

my mum duno sot jor o wat la..

suddenly tel my dad bout last time when they live v my grandparents..

how my grandparents treat my mum when i m small..

when i small my parents went out n work d..

coz our family was poor..

no money 2 afford d life..

den i was take care by my grandma d..

gt one time my grandma take me downstairs n play lo..

she chatting v her frenz..

i was playing around..

my mum said tat my grandma tel her frenz tat i wont b very clever d..

although i m big jor..

she said coz my parents oso not very educated ppl..

so do i oso..

wont b an educated ppl..

i was still small so duno lo..

den since small..

my grandparents like uncle n his family more d..

coz my uncle n aunt was an educated ppl..

so did my cousin lo..

they went overseas n study university d..

i think they go overseas is kinda waste of money..

their big son went overseas many yrs ago..

he study physiology d..

but cum bek m'sia work as a car's seller..

he waste his dad so much money study overseas..

haizz..

but 4 me..

they was jz a face v 2 mask..

especially my aunt..

coz she treat my mum badly when i was small..

she tink tat she was educated den can be arrogant..

treat ppl as treat her own hse maid..

din think of others ppl feeling..

tats y i hate her much since i noe wats goin on around me..

my mum was having a hard life when she was young..

since she was small..

she had 2 take care of her bros n sis..

coz she was d biggest child in family..

n my grandparents go work..

days n nights..

all d hse chores was done by my mum alone..

den when she was around 17-18 yrs old..

she went 2 kl n find a job..

mayb tat time she meet my dad gua..

i nt sure oso d o..

coz they nva tel me bout their ''pak toh'' time d..

hehe..

she live outside v her frenz..

work days n nights oso d..

but ony can earned a bit money je..

so she hardly save those money..

saved it 4 our future uses..

den after my parents gt married..

my parents lived v father n mother in laws..

which is now my grandparents..

my grandma alsways say bad things bout my mum..

coz she ony gt 2 sons..

n my uncle n his wife oso educated d ma..

sure she will like them much den my parents d...

but her biggest ''menantu'' oso dun wan live 2gather v my grandparents d..

d ''menantu'' refused 2 live v them..

but my grandparents oso stil think tat their ''menantu'' was d best of all..

but they was wrong..

now my gramdma ald paralyzed..

my uncle n aunt oso din take care of them..

jz gv my grandparents sum money..

n oso pay sum of d maid's fees..

d rest was take care by my parents jor..

den ony my grandma noe tat my mum was better lo..

when i heard my mum saying those things 2 my dad..

i was listening tat time d..

i suddenly felt wan cry out..

den i reli cry out jor..

but ony last 4 a few mins jer..

coz i scared they noe i was crying in d bathroom..

i dun wan they noe..

i wan my cries keeps silence..

i hope no one wil ever noe when i m crying..

especially my family n my frenz..

[[ could make them wonder n worried n curious o ]]

_______________EnD oF Da StoRy______________

*~* H@rDesT DaY !n My L!Fe o *~*

aiyooyoo..
duno y since tis yr i felt tat sat is d most hardest day i had in d week..
siennzzz la..
mayb coz gt band la..
coz since d band formed in gb n bb..
stressful feelings cum when band time d..
mayb coz i cant enjoy band time gua..
feel so fan d..
coz hv 2 rmbr tis n tat..
i noe i m lazy d..
tats y i cant improved lo..
tis one i din blame anyone @ anything d..
i noe myself la..
keke n_n"

at 1st i was very like d band d..
like d percussion side d..
but i din refuse 2 b in brass oso..
coz i tink i can learn both side..
coz py, ym n ws oso at percussion ma..
they can teach me lo..
den if i m in brass oso gt fm la..
she oso can teach me d..
heeee..
cccccc..
i gt so many best frenz o..
haha :D

but now.. i almost gv up jor..
90% gv up ler..
feel nt interesting in band anymore..
( disappointed )

sumore my command terrible bad d..
oh, shoot!
always command sure gt feedbek from officers d..
heehee..
but hor..
tis yr begin..
every sat i oso very tired d..
no mood lo..
always nt song d..
bcum less talkative in church jor ler..
i more prefer sit aside in church alone..
so no one wil get scold from me 4 sure..
n oso i wont nt song tat ppl..

hope they will avoid a ''bomb'' la..
tats me..
^^

:: ~ Dun Wanna Make My Parents Disappointed Anymore ~ ::

dun

wanna

make my

parents

disappointed

anymore

!!!

wanna noe wat meaning of those pictural structure ??

hehe..=D

guess urself la..

hmm..

i gt bek my report card since last yr d..

but i always 4get bout it..

so i din show it 2 my parents as well lo..

everytime when i wanna show my parents d report card..

i dun dare oso 2 show them..

coz of my lousy results..

almost half is failed..

[ a red colour report card ]

i scared my parents wil scold me badly..

coz i nva take such a bad result in my life..

haizzzz.. =.="

at last i had 2 show them d report card..

its coz my class teacher wan it bek..

i ony show it 2 my dad n not 2 my mum..

heeeheee..

coz tat time my mum not at home..

n i had 2 sleep ald..

so jz show it 2 my dad lo..

my dad ask me y my result bcum like tis d..

i couldnt ans him..

coz myself oso duno wats d reason leh..

how i gonna ans him o..

i jz ans him tat F4 is ''honeymoon yr'' lo..

den he ask me whether i noe wats is d sch n tuition teacher teaching ma..

ask me whether wats going on d whole yr..

i din ans him bek tis time..

i noe tat i waste alot of time 4 d whole yr..

waste it playing around..

waste it fooling around..

tat time my dad ask me such ques..

my heartbeat bcum faster n faster jor..

my heart suddenly gt a crack on it..

walaooo..

suddenly i felt tat my dad ald old jor lo..

cant had d energy 2 scold me as last time he did..

his health bcum bad jor..

he always coughed..

n gt one time he coughed til gt a bit blood came out oso..

i scared his will b worst time by time..

coz he everyday oso drink wine n beer..

he oso gt take cigarette o..

a kind of worried appears in my heart..

after tat i promise myself tat i reli hav 2 study jor..

i dun wan my parents b such a disappointed v me..

coz my sis ald dun wanna study jor..

n her result more bad den me oso..

my parents ald gv her gek sei..

n my bro stil so small..

he stil nid us 2 afford him 2 study in times leh..

my mum always said 2 us tat a gal shud b more educated den guys..

coz if no guy wanna ''yong'' u..

at least u r educated easily can find job..

nonid depend on d guy 2 gv u money..

do a business woman..

hehe..

i agree v my mum's opinion d..

coz in tis world no guys is dependable..

how hard my life could b oso i wont depend on guys..

___ **P@RenTs Th!nK FoR OwN Ch!Ldr3N** ___

hmm..
y'day i din go out o..
i stay at home d whole day..
as well as my sis too..
but duno y my mum keeps on scolding us [my sis n i]..
especially is my sis..
coz everytime oso is she gt scold d..

my mum said tat both of us oso din help her 2 clean d hse..
d room oso din clean up..
such a dirty mess..
d cupboard oso gt so many dusk din clean up..
d table full of books n bags..

but wat 2 do..
me n my sis oso such a lazy..
hehe..
i came bek everyday oso ald 8pm lo..
do hw d time oso nt enuf..
but normally i watched tv more la..
keke..
my sis ony noe sleep n sleep..
n chat on d msn d..
haizzz.. gek sei lo..

den y'day my mum d mood very bad..
extremely bad..
worst den other days..
[mayb coz of my sis gua.. as my mum said]..

den my dad came bek jor..
he brought my little bro d fren [almost same age as my bro] came 2 our hse as well..
my mum is in d angry situation..
n my dad suddenly bring tat kid came leh..
sure my mum will b ''explode'' d la..

den tat kid go home jor..
my dad came bek la..
a fight btw my mum n my dad start lo..
haizzz.. =.="
fight occur coz my mum keeps on scolding my dad
my dad oso no ''song'' lo..
outside gv ppl scold..
home oso gv ppl scold..
den they start their action la..

they fight at d kitchen thr..
but stil can b seen by us at d living room thr d..
they fight n fight..
they scold n scold each other..
my mum screamed..

i was in d room tat time..
i dun dare stand thr n watch wat happen 2 them..
coz tat time i can felt tat my heart was ''pain''..
''crying'' inside my heart..
the feeling was very strong..
but i din cry out..
no tears..

after a while they stopped..
my mum went out 2 d balcony..
i tink my mum was crying thr..
my dad was sitting on d living room..
watching tv..
den i went 2 d kitchen..
2 hav a glass of water d..

but i myself oso cant think tis will happen..
as i went 2 d kitchen i saw some titisan of blood on d floor..
tat time i noe my mum was bleeding..
mayb gt punch by my dad..

walao..
my heart bcam more ''pain'' n ''crying'' inside badly..
but wat could i do leh ??
wat i can do was jz clean up those blood lo..
wahhh..
those blood smells bad la..
d blood was everywhr la..
but i ald clean up la..
no smell jor..

haizz..
at nite my sis told me tat she saw my mum slapped my dad v d shoes..
den my dad slapped bek my mum v hand..
my mum fall down on knees on d floor..
my dad tarik my mum's hair..
till my mum's head touching d floor as well..
mayb tis cause my mum bleeding gua..

den i told my sis tat i wont b married 4ever d..
coz i dun like n oso scared husband beat wife..
tats y my sis rather 2 bcum 'L' lo..
but luckily i wasnt like her..
heehee..

fight btw my parents make me feel like tis world dun hav any guy is worthy..
none of them is worthy 4 me..
[[ DISAPPOINTED ]]

but nvm la.. i stil gt frenz ma..
i dun tink they wil treat me like tis gua..
hahahaha..
they r d ony ppl i could trust d..

@-: !nDePenDenCe :-@

hmm..

I.N.D.E.P.E.N.D.E.N.C.E.

is tat everyone was born in tis 2gather v tis word ??

y ppl in tis world shud b independant ??

independant..

in anyways..

in anythings..

in anywheres..

~INDEPENDENCE~

tis characteristic was exist in many ppl's personality..

but not 4 me..

i din even noe how 2 b independant..

without my family @ frenz..

or mayb i was a person who scared alone..

i nva walked alone..

i nva eat alone..

i nva sit alone..

i nva been sumwhr alone..

i can b say as a dependant person..

especially depend on my family @ frenz..

whoever noe me wil think so..

hehe =D

i think who bcums my bf @ husband sure wil die d..

always wil feel like tercekik..

coz i m a string tat wil kill ppl d..

keke =p

wat do u think bout urself ??

^.^